Nothing is in the right place in the grocery store! I needed to do some grocery shopping today, so one of my many errands was Giant. I walked into Giant, and I realized I still feel disoriented in grocery stores here for some reason. I do not understand this. I honestly do not feel like I am justified in being so confused by things here in the USA. Yes, I was in London for three years. But it's London. It's not like I was in the Amazon.
But I do feel confused and sometimes overwhelmed by it. It's nothing anyone can change, I know that. It will just take a little more time. But I noticed it more so when I walked into the store and my first thought was to turn around and leave. It's ok. I don't really need food anyway. I laughed at myself and made myself "keep calm and carry on." And almost ran into someone with my cart. But that's beside the point.
Green seedless grapes were $.99. I was very happy, once I saw what they would normally cost. I almost bought some for Laura and then remembered that she's in England and I'm not. So then I checked with my sister, but she didn't need any either. I bought two bags (one to freeze...yummy frozen grapes!) and continued on my way. I walked in the candy aisle just to tempt myself. I saw peanut butter Snickers. Is that possible? I didn't know they made those! I exercised self control and went on my way to find hand-soap.
I could not find it. I walked up and down aisles, reading signs....finally found it. Went on to get my last few things and then was searching for carrots only to realize that they were back at the end of the store where I got the grapes. Grrrr....back to the beginning. On the way there, I remembered I needed bin liners for the kitchen trash bins. I found those easily enough and went down the aisle.
There is an aisle for bin liners? There are oodles. I just want ones like I have at home. What kind do I have at home? It's a yellow box. They are ALL yellow boxes, Hope. Red handle ties. Hmm...that narrows it down to about twenty kinds. (I stare at the boxes for a little bit.) You know what, I don't need bin liners. I have enough at home. I'll figure it out another day.
I left without making a selection. I know, it's such a silly thing. But I didn't want to buy really expensive ones when cheaper ones work just as well but I didn't want the really cheap-o ones that might break and then all of a sudden, I was upset over rubbish bin liners.
After I paid and packed my groceries into my bag, I left just wanting to go home. On my way to the truck, I walked through the outdoor cafe, past a guy wearing a Giant uniform shirt who was apparently on break. He caught my eye and said, "How you doing?"
I'm not really sure if he meant that as a "How YOU doing, honey?" or a "Are you ok? You look like you might be talking to yourself and on the verge of a breakdown as you walk out of the grocery store and just thought I would be cordial and see how you are doing..." Either way, I responded with a "Fine, thanks," as I kept walking. I was thinking, "If you only knew I just freaked out over hand-soap and trash liners and carrots being in the wrong place..."
It got a little worse when I pulled out the parking lot. I stayed at the stop sign for a little while longer than normal. I was turning into a one way system, and for some reason, I could not think of which way I should turn! Pity the person behind me. I figured it out and made a right turn. My bottom lip may have been quivering by the time I pulled the main road.
I walked into the house thinking I never wanted to leave again, but that's just my dramatic self indulging in a little pity party. I did leave in about two hours for a Zumba class at the gym. I'm so glad I did. I absolutely loved the class. It was so fun and just the ticket to cheer me up. Some of the moves are "Bollywood" inspired and reminded me of my Bhangra class from London. Now, it's time for a much needed sleep. Tomorrow is another day.
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